I am a stay at home Mom who is on mission to be the best Christian, Mother, Wife and Friend I can be - while learning how to grieve the loss of my son Landon and keeping my eyes on God. Will I ever be enough?
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I am missing Landon alot today. Can't help but think that it would be me and him at home right now rather than just me while sister, Kylee, is at school. Wish he were here.
It's hard always thinking about what life would be like if our babies were with us! When I have bad days (not just emotional days, but days where I struggle with the boys) I tend to think life would be perfect if Felicity were with us. I have to remind myself, I'd still have those same struggles and to enjoy what I have when I have it rather than wishing for more! Thinking of you!
I am a 29 year old mother to Kylee and Landon and a wife to Paul. Kylee will be 10 10/2009. She is a little miracle and I am so incredibly blessed and honored that God chose me to be her mom. She makes me so proud. Landon was stillborn at full term 2/12/2009 due to a true knot. I miss him more than anyone can imagine. He is my inspiration to continue my life and make it the best that it can be. I wish he were here. I have been married to Paul for almost 11 years. He is my life! I still wonder how I am so blessed to have such a wonderful God bearing man in my life. I love my family, they are EVERYTHING to me, above God! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
It's hard always thinking about what life would be like if our babies were with us! When I have bad days (not just emotional days, but days where I struggle with the boys) I tend to think life would be perfect if Felicity were with us. I have to remind myself, I'd still have those same struggles and to enjoy what I have when I have it rather than wishing for more! Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteThank you Rachel. That is what I needed to hear!
ReplyDelete-Missy