Wow! Only 5 days left and here I am thinking back on all we’ve been through to get this sweet baby girl here. On February 12, 2009 we had our angel son Landon, who was stillborn due to a true knot and nuchal cord X2. He was a little bit of a surprise to have, considering that ever since we had had Kylee we were told that with my PCOS and choosing not to take medications to help things along, we had less than 1% of having anymore children. So a miracle to us he was. My cysts had popped on their own and made me more fertile than ever. What a gift from God. But we had our children almost 10 years apart and we were for sure that this was it. We were going to be done having children after Landon. With much convincing to the doctors my tubes were tied the day I had him.
Needless to say, that was not what we wanted. Once you have these hopes and dreams of your child being in your arms and then have it taken away so quickly, you tend (or for us anyway) to want as many as God is willing to give you. 3 days later we admitted the Dr was right and by May 2009 I had my tubal reversed. Now again, they said a normal woman would take 6 months to a year to be able to get pregnant again after a reversal. With me and the chances of PCOS coming back they thought possibly longer than a year for us. So after my hematoma healed after my reversal Paul and I thought we better get going if we are going to have to wait a year or more to have more kids. And with the doctors release we began to try again.
July went by and no luck, not a surprise but disappointments arose. I just wanted another baby if not 2 or 3 more, though I knew this was going to be a lengthy process. So in August I tried to prepare myself that it probably wasn’t going to happen but low and behold another sweet miracle! We were pregnant again!! Within 2 months of trying. The Doctors were flabbergasted to say the least. We found out we were 2 ½ weeks pregnant on August 7th with a due date of May 16, 2010!
Now with a reversal we ran a high risk of a tubal pregnancy. We had to wait a few weeks for the sonogram to show the fertilized egg but at 5 weeks pregnant we were able to see a viable pregnancy in the uterus!! Again, another sweet miracle. I was having some issues at 8 weeks along that made the doctors watch me a little and put me on limited bed rest. Not too bad though. Well at 12 weeks the scariest thing imaginable at that time happened. I was out shopping and began to cramp which was followed by bleeding. I was terrified, please God do not take another baby. The outcome wasn’t great; we thought we were in the process of losing our sweet baby….again! As time went by the bleeding slowly stopped on its own. They were able to do all the testing and it came to show I had a subchorionic hemmorage/hematoma. Basically a part of my placenta detached. They don’t call it a placental abruption this early in pregnancy.
Anyway, needless to say the next 8 weeks were spent on bed rest. They wanted to make sure nothing else happened. Especially with my history with Kylee, my placenta abrupted with her at 36 weeks. So we continued to see my high risk doctors every 4 weeks and my regular OB every 2 weeks, until my 29th week where I saw both doctors weekly. In the end she was a little fighter and was perfectly okay!
To make the story shorter, not necessarily short….we had so many little things come up in this pregnancy that just seemed to happen one right after another. Our family endured swine flu, croup, stomach bugs, I had my dental implant act up, was diagnosed with TMJ and had to get a mouth guard, depression set in, Landon’s 1 year angelversary, abdominal migraines, whiplash, surpluses, life without Landon and just so much more, yet here we are 5 days from Vivian’s arrival and we have survived this far. I’m not shocked my family pulled through, I am just in shock that Vivian and I are still holding it together. It amazes me that all we have been through, grief and emotions, hormones, health issues and other problems, she is just as healthy as can be as of the writing of this letter. I don’t know why Landon isn’t with us, and I probably never will. I just know that he gave my family hope and the endurance to push through the many things that normally would have knocked us down by now, kept us focused on God. And though I know it is my almighty God that has gotten us this far, I know Vivian’s big brother Landon is watching over her and helping God in doing his best to bring her to us. A difficult road just to even conceive her, plus a high risk pregnancy with lots of ups and downs….only 5 more days until we hold our precious third baby!! God is so good! Can’t wait to meet our Vivian Hope Schuchman! It amazes me how all 3 of my children are miracles, I have medical reasons none of them should have been with us. Even Landon lasted longer than he should have considering the severity of his knot! God is good, amazing, and He has NEVER left us! We are soooooo blessed!!